life sux..

today
sian sch starting soon.. aft this morning blog dint get to sleep also.. watch some anime and movie~ and almost 1pm when to visit fish shop~ haha.. i was wondering should i get a arowana or luohan? but i also feel like getting tetra alot of tetra.. tat will make a very beautiful tank of fishes~ haha.. or maybe get some other fish~ hehe.. dont noe la..

and i when for lunch~ walk the whole place.. dont noe wad 2 eat.. eating seems 2 b a problem now 2 me.. i really dont noe wad 2 eat.. i dont noe wad to crave for anymore.. anything cheap and can fell up my tummy is good enuff bah.. but still alot of thing to choose from.. meat mince noodle is my last choose la.. ate tat.. haha..

aft tat when walk walk den bought a 1ft+ tank.. gonna use it for breeding.. i like fancy colour betta.. and so do i like solid colour betta.. so gonna breed both lor haha.. trying to breed the red dragon bro kebab gave me.. but dont seems like it.. it stop making bubble nest.. so got to wait abit more bah.. muz get it breed out.. if not it will b a let down to bro kebab..

at about 4+ when to take a nap.. as u can see i dint sleep last nite.. wake up at about 6+.. wake up like so blur like tat.. i dont noe wad i m doing also.. walk out 1st thing to do see my fish~ and like wow~~ some nice fish i have haha.. OMG!!!

den wash up~ and i m thinking of spawning the gold dragon!! this is a muz spawn piece.. my craving for a full masked gold dragon! tat would b a dream come true.. haha.. now put them into condition mood.. LoL

7+ gonna go get dinner.. my bloody sister ask her to treat i buy she dont 1.. den i bought my own food.. aft tat she say "eh cook me the tom yam noodle.." i say u go wash the dish i cook.. den she say she bz.. ask her to wash the dish for me to cook for her leh! its not me gonna use the dish! fking cb.. den i say okay i wash 1 for u 2 cook and u wash the rest aft u finish ur food..! and i wash it and cook it.. bloody hell. she wanna eat ask me cook i muz wash the dish somemore.. wad the fk is tat..

if my sister is not so fk up how good would it b? too bad she dont wanna get married.. fking hell spoil my mode everything.. ask me do this do tat..

hello! i m not paid to do thing for u! feel like slapping her face so hard so hard tat my mum cant tell its her!!

some time thinking of thing make me angry.. and will even have a nose bleed..! boiling point~ and i think my nose bleed is becos i have too much thing to get mad over and too much thing to do at home.. all the house work also i do.. haiz.. damit!

how i wish i can have my own flat.. own house~ own room own life!! its too lifeless here.. i need to take care of my dog.. which belong to my sister.. and do every fking thing in the house.. FK this life man!! if i can move out! gimme 1 room will do!! inside my room! my fishes and my computer~ and 1 bed! tats all 1 wish for now!

some times really wish 2 have a simple life.. but this world ppl around u r pushing u so hard to make u nuts! no wonder there is so many mad ppl in this world!

i cant release my anger some time feel so bad! feel so pain deep inside..

maybe normally u dont see me get angry over things big or small.. and i m always having a smile on my face.. but life is hard.. for me.. jsut trying to b a simple person and i dont wanna push ppl hard.. even i have all the rite to get angry i just calm myself down.. cos i dont wanna hurt anybody..

maybe i will die young or when crazy!
taking care of others i m find with tat.. but dont rely on other ppl 2 much!
i got my life 2.. all i wan now is 2 b alone.. care about nothing.. just live my life.. maybe u can gimme a farm with a room with my computer~ maybe also an air con~ woot~ simple life~ for me tats enuff.. i dont wish for lots of money! i dont wish for a hot sexy wife.. i dont wish for me being a well known person..

some time the pace of life is just 2 face bah.. it make me wanna go into some where with slow pace and quiet place.. live my life there~ spending my life with in the nature~ walk a dog~ breed my fish~

if not how i wish i m death! pls dont push me 2 hard! pls spread a tot for me 2..

writing things here release abit abit of my anger! but still not much at all..